I DIDNT FORGET

SAorry for the lack of update. A few nights my net went dead before i could post, and then I was over at Molly's last night.

HOORAY FER SOCIAL ACTIVITY!!!

I am once again having second thoughts about my latest screenplay. Its really losery. Well like. I like it. Hell I love it. But I am sucha loser XDD. I've told two people cos they are the only two people that i had in mind for characters and shizzy.

I feel like a failure. Like iunno. I'm friends with a few other film makers. They all have their shit together. I do not. I really would like to think I did. And the thing is, I dunno how to get my shit together. Its kind of like this. If you asked me if I knew anything about basketball, and I knew the basic jist of the game, so I reply with a yes. And then it feels like everyone expects me to be Micheal Jordan, when really I am standing in the middle of the court wondering what the fuck I need to do.

Disclaimer: I know all of nothing about basketball, cept the ball in the hoop part. I was just using that as an example. C'mon. My fat ass playin basketball? HA!

All of these feelings of failure usually pop up when i'm talkin to other film makers, or seeing what they are doing and blah. I havent been able to make something in a long while. I'm itching to make something. Seriously. Its like this narcotic. But to tell you the truth, I'm kind of scared to make something. Cos everyone knows me as 'Ally J, the film maker' cos its really what I wanna do. But like, i'm afriad if I go and make something, it will suck, and then everyone will be like :OKAY YOU SUCK GTFO: But how am I supposed to get better without practice ya dig? I dunno. I have the resources to do things.

But now that I have the ball, what do I do with it in order to get it in the hoop?

Ah well. enough of that. Other news, had the most fantastic time at Molly's last night. Lion King refrences, wii, and Bullets Over Broadway with a dash of jollyflowers thrown in to make things more interesting.

Its after nights like that, that I really love life.

Maybe I can get all this shit together and make life even more fantastic?

:O:O:O

Peace and Love,
Ally J